Afterwards – Friday Fictioneers, January 2023

Copyright Roger Bultot

I thought I’d got over it.  And for the most part, I had.

But not, you understand,

 to the extent that I emerged

whole, unchanged,

a carbon copy of my former self.

Emerging into the light,

dazzled, bemused,

I indulged in a brief inventory.




All in order.

All present and correct.

It was just that tiny black hole that I discovered

as I put my life back together again.


it was just the hope that was missing.

Happy New Year to all Friday Fictioneers. Despite the sombre offering this week, I’m actually feeling quite upbeat as the New Year begins. Readers can insert their own word in that last line. Maybe I should have used ‘inspiration’. Thanks once again to Rochelle for all her hard work.

About Sandra

I used to cruise the French waterways with my husband four or five months a year, and wrote fiction and poetry. Now I live on the beautiful Dorset coast, enjoying the luxury of being able to have a cat, cultivating an extensive garden and getting involved in the community. I still write fiction, but only when the spirit moves me - which isn't as often as before. I love animals, F1 motor racing, French bread and my husband, though not necessarily in that order.
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52 Responses to Afterwards – Friday Fictioneers, January 2023

  1. neilmacdon says:

    You could even have substituted “despair”, but it wouldn’t, of course, have been so good


  2. James McEwan says:

    “Emerging into the light,” could sum up all our expectations for this New Year.
    As for hope, I always find this puts a damper on resilient action. Just my thought.
    I enjoyed your format and the inspiration of self-discovery.


  3. Iain Kelly says:

    I saw similar desolation to start the new year! Evocative writing Sandra, all the best for 2023.


  4. authorfleurl says:

    Thought-provoking. I hope there is a good dollop of hope in 2023. Happy new year 🙂


  5. Tannille says:

    Hope is a powerful entity. Here’s to hope and 2023 🥂!

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  6. Dale says:

    Each hurt, each challenge, each experience, leaves a little (or large) mark, affecting how we see things, making us more wary or cynical.
    Brilliant piece, Sandra.

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  7. Dear Sandra,

    As others have said, I echo. Evocative pieces. Perhaps hope and inspiration are on the horizon, just over the next ridge. Well written in any event.



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  8. elmowrites says:

    Heart-breaking as it stands, Sandra, but I enjoyed the thought experiment of replacing that word – Neil’s choice of despair makes for a very different feeling. I’m glad the New Year is upbeat for you so far. I hope 2023 turns out to be the best year yet for us all.


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  9. granonine says:

    This is beautiful, Sandra.


  10. msjadeli says:

    A+++ Piercing insight here about trauma survivors.

    Liked by 1 person

  11. athling2001 says:

    Well done. It makes me want to know more about the speaker.


  12. Bill says:

    Well done, Sandra. A thinkers story. 🙂


  13. Hope springs eternal, it’ll return in time, you see.

    Liked by 1 person

  14. Liz Young says:

    I would insert ‘mojo’ as hope springs eternal, but I know what you mean.


  15. plaridel says:

    to paraphrase one of jane austen’s character, she hopes the longest when all hopes are gone.


  16. Nobbinmaug says:

    Hope is one of those things we can’t live with, can’t live without. Depending on the circumstances, of course. False hope can be worse than no hope.


  17. dorahak says:

    “That tiny black hole”: an understatement of tragic despair that leaves us with a lump in our throats. Exquisitely rendered, and as usual, not a word wasted, Sandra.


  18. poetisatinta says:

    Lovely piece of writing Sandra


  19. Wow! This was moving. Where there is life, in whichever form and condition it is, may there always be hope.


  20. Aww this is soo sad to me.
    I found myself feeling a bit despondent the other day.
    Hope is so vital …


  21. Liam says:

    Lovely and poetic.


  22. GHLearner says:

    Wonderful and very powerful in its darkness. Replacement would take the strength of the poem away I think.

    Liked by 1 person

  23. pennygadd51 says:

    This story shows your usual skill in hooking your reader and leading us on to a satisfying ending. In fact, this story goes on beyond the written ending, because that loss of hope is important – life and death hang upon it.
    Good story!

    Liked by 1 person

  24. michael1148humphris says:

    I can only echo other comments, as my muse is on a go slow,

    Liked by 1 person

  25. Dear Sandra . Thank you for your poem. Love the rhythm and wording. Sending you a little hope your way, sunny today.

    Liked by 1 person

  26. This is lovely, Sandra!

    Liked by 1 person

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